Is it too much to ask for to ask you to care more?

Sometimes I can't grasp why you are this way. It confuses me. It's like why let me waste a phone call over silence? I just don't get it. Look, if you don't have anything to say, then fine, just say you're tired or something and hang up.

I mean, it's not like I've got eternity to spend time with you. Let alone a phone call. I'm counting down the days as it is, what more do you want? ERGH! I'm so frustrated!

To add to this uneasy feeling, I've got Moral Finals tomorrow. Fantabulous. Sometimes, life can be such a pain in the arse.

Today, I played as a spare player for team LOL. I got like 3 passes although I missed the first 2 cause I was tangled up with a member on the opposing team who was trying to keep me away from the goal but the THIRD TIME I SHOULD'VE FUCKING SCORED!

I just SHOULD'VE! ISH! I'm so mad cause I knew I could, I knew that I had it in me but yet I didn't! RAH! I'm so pissed off! Why do I allow you to dictate my life? I'm still trying to understand!