How can we even begin to save others when its we ourselves that need saving?
So much courses through my mind day in day out, the meaning of life, the search for what it means, the quest for freedom.
The living in the now but that now is being taken away by all the mental stress I can hardly hear my own thoughts without being interrupted by some other thought that manages to creep its way through.
I'm starved for a life but what life would that be if not my own?
How to best put these sensations and emotions I'm feeling into words I don't know how yet, perhaps that has to do with my inability to fully use the English language to its fullest to express what it is I want to convey.
Perhaps the solution to all this is just to read more books.
That way the cycle may continue in a loop, read more books, learn more words and definitions, better express problems and poof come up with more complex ones.
Oh Lord. I just want to go into temporary hibernation. Forget the world, responsibilities, people who add to the stress and just vacate somewhere unknown.
Someday... maybe I'll disappear..
Is that selfish of me?
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Being the bigger person
This has been on the back of my mind for the past few days. It was an encounter of which I had the misfortune of experiencing firsthand.
You see, when people think that using a condescending tone will get them what they want, they are gravely mistaken.
More so, when their choice of words are that off a 12 year old boys vocabulary.
Merely raising ones voice does nothing but show immaturity, lack of patience and an obvious lack of critical thinking on how best to problem solve.
Attempting to look and by extension, feel, superior may work when you are in a position to degrade others.
That, too being unacceptable behaviour of an evidently unsuitable "leader".
I, however, refuse to stand for such treatment.
When someone does not heed to advice, one that will save the person from not only embarrassment but also a terrible first impression, I suggest that person take the advice.
The fact that there was a need to speak to me as if I lacked the capability of understanding only goes to show how little one listened with the intent of understanding. Instead, one seems to have heard solely for the purpose of responding.
Listen, understand, think, and then react.
Don't react out of haste or impulse just because it "appears" to elevate you into a higher position; it doesn't.
Silly people will always be around us, it is our choice on how we choose to respond and/or react to them.
IF we need to.
Some people do not deserve the time of day.
Others however, should remember, age does not determine maturity nor does it demand instant respect.
Respect is mutual. Is must be given to be received.
Hopefully, there will no longer be such unnecessary encounters in the future.
More for your sake than mine, you have more on the line.
Did you stop to think about that?
Perhaps you should have.
Good Day.
You see, when people think that using a condescending tone will get them what they want, they are gravely mistaken.
More so, when their choice of words are that off a 12 year old boys vocabulary.
Merely raising ones voice does nothing but show immaturity, lack of patience and an obvious lack of critical thinking on how best to problem solve.
Attempting to look and by extension, feel, superior may work when you are in a position to degrade others.
That, too being unacceptable behaviour of an evidently unsuitable "leader".
I, however, refuse to stand for such treatment.
When someone does not heed to advice, one that will save the person from not only embarrassment but also a terrible first impression, I suggest that person take the advice.
The fact that there was a need to speak to me as if I lacked the capability of understanding only goes to show how little one listened with the intent of understanding. Instead, one seems to have heard solely for the purpose of responding.
Listen, understand, think, and then react.
Don't react out of haste or impulse just because it "appears" to elevate you into a higher position; it doesn't.
Silly people will always be around us, it is our choice on how we choose to respond and/or react to them.
IF we need to.
Some people do not deserve the time of day.
Others however, should remember, age does not determine maturity nor does it demand instant respect.
Respect is mutual. Is must be given to be received.
Hopefully, there will no longer be such unnecessary encounters in the future.
More for your sake than mine, you have more on the line.
Did you stop to think about that?
Perhaps you should have.
Good Day.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Not sure what's on your mind
We should never give up.
Not in ourselves.
Not in others who matter.
Not in the universe.
Perseverance is a much bigger word than we care to give it credit for.
I will always try...
Not in ourselves.
Not in others who matter.
Not in the universe.
Perseverance is a much bigger word than we care to give it credit for.
I will always try...
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Aged
2013 is here, the new year is upon us once again. Resolutions are made, some completed, some never started.
Many look upon the new year as a new beginning but I look at it as a continuation of the previous year and the years before that. A way to close a chapter that perhaps lasted a few years and a way to open a new one where its time has come.
As years past by we age, there's no doubt about that, it's a fact. But how we choose to live life as we age, at an older age is what keeps our spirit alive.
With that, I leave you with this video, in hopes that you believe that you are only as old as you believe you are. Youth is within, the elixir of life stems from self enlightenment and self help. Only you can live life the way you want to.
Many look upon the new year as a new beginning but I look at it as a continuation of the previous year and the years before that. A way to close a chapter that perhaps lasted a few years and a way to open a new one where its time has come.
As years past by we age, there's no doubt about that, it's a fact. But how we choose to live life as we age, at an older age is what keeps our spirit alive.
With that, I leave you with this video, in hopes that you believe that you are only as old as you believe you are. Youth is within, the elixir of life stems from self enlightenment and self help. Only you can live life the way you want to.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Hope?
It's the one thing that keeps us alive. Seasons may change, we must weather the storms, circumstances make life tough but we'll brave through it, all of us will because all of us have the ability to do so, the capacity to propel ourselves forward in spite of difficulty coming our way.
The goal is far from achieved, it is approximately 705 days away but it will materialize because we can overcome, we will conquer and at this time, in 2 years, we'll be there celebrating this remarkable feat.
The goal is far from achieved, it is approximately 705 days away but it will materialize because we can overcome, we will conquer and at this time, in 2 years, we'll be there celebrating this remarkable feat.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Retribution
Many times I turn to retribution as the reason to retaliate, to strike back, to give the person what it is they gave me, an eye for an eye. But then, there's a saying that goes something like, An Eye For An Eye Turns The Whole World Blind.
Now, venting may be one way of release but another way I've found in me is one that requires more strength and patience. People who treat you poorly will get what comes to them, after all, what goes around comes around yes?
Do good and good will come back to you. Karma.
Encountering people who refuse to help, who refuse to be the bigger person allow me to become the bigger person myself. To see and realize that their ways aren't the ways I intend to follow.
The ways I intend to follow are those based on my personal conscience. Those that hopefully will not be influenced by what others do but what I know to be right, in spite of this road being one that may face more hardships and challenges.
Some may say I'm a fool. Why take the hard road when you can just as easily get from Point A to Point B using an easier route, albeit one that may require you to compromise on several personal values.
Well, see, I aspire to one day become someone who is not just known for any reputation but one that is held in respect where others would like to aspire to be, or to become. I'm done sitting in the passengers seat, I'm taking charge and trying not to use excuses as "reasons" for failure or an inability to let go.
As one door closes, another opens. No matter where that door may lead, all I can do to assure myself is by having the knowledge that at least I'll be moving forward. Gone are the days where I will backtrack, maybe delve into the past every now and then, memories can serve well to reinstill happiness for the dark times but other than that, let's go life! I'M READY!
2013! The world won't end, it will merely (with much hope) be the closing of the war chapter and the superpowers dictatorship over Asia whilst a beam of light will come through allowing the path of Enlightenment to be seen, and, to be seen by many. (:
Peace. It's a time for it. Discrimination will still be around but let's hope the world can change. In the end, faith is all we have to keep the world revolving, really.
Personal outlook that is. (=
Now, venting may be one way of release but another way I've found in me is one that requires more strength and patience. People who treat you poorly will get what comes to them, after all, what goes around comes around yes?
Do good and good will come back to you. Karma.
Encountering people who refuse to help, who refuse to be the bigger person allow me to become the bigger person myself. To see and realize that their ways aren't the ways I intend to follow.
The ways I intend to follow are those based on my personal conscience. Those that hopefully will not be influenced by what others do but what I know to be right, in spite of this road being one that may face more hardships and challenges.
Some may say I'm a fool. Why take the hard road when you can just as easily get from Point A to Point B using an easier route, albeit one that may require you to compromise on several personal values.
Well, see, I aspire to one day become someone who is not just known for any reputation but one that is held in respect where others would like to aspire to be, or to become. I'm done sitting in the passengers seat, I'm taking charge and trying not to use excuses as "reasons" for failure or an inability to let go.
As one door closes, another opens. No matter where that door may lead, all I can do to assure myself is by having the knowledge that at least I'll be moving forward. Gone are the days where I will backtrack, maybe delve into the past every now and then, memories can serve well to reinstill happiness for the dark times but other than that, let's go life! I'M READY!
2013! The world won't end, it will merely (with much hope) be the closing of the war chapter and the superpowers dictatorship over Asia whilst a beam of light will come through allowing the path of Enlightenment to be seen, and, to be seen by many. (:
Peace. It's a time for it. Discrimination will still be around but let's hope the world can change. In the end, faith is all we have to keep the world revolving, really.
Personal outlook that is. (=
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Living
And it becomes clearer day by day the things that matter and those that don't. The people who do and the people who don't. The experiences worth living for and the ones just not worth your time.
In moments like these there's a slow and steady, calm and still feeling that's just hard to explain. Tah.. what am I saying.
This constriction. Sentences. How they've got to make sense and all that. Driving me nuts at this hour. Will need to be up in a little over 3 hours, I'm seriously contemplating not sleeping. What good is sleeping if the sleep is not a peaceful one. If it isn't one that allows my mind to drift into another world and to have an out-of-body experience.
Lots of calculations were done today. Calculations for the future. Plans even. Some say don't plan and allow life to surprise you but I think one isn't able to just not plan at all, instead, plan some and leave the rest to the strange divine being that works his/her magic.
Projections. Good and bad.
Not exactly sure of what I'm getting at, if I'm even getting at anything. But oh well, nightly or rather dawn-ly thoughts are all part of living.
At the very least, my brain and body are functioning, that's got to count for something. :)
Till further ramblings! Ha!
In moments like these there's a slow and steady, calm and still feeling that's just hard to explain. Tah.. what am I saying.
This constriction. Sentences. How they've got to make sense and all that. Driving me nuts at this hour. Will need to be up in a little over 3 hours, I'm seriously contemplating not sleeping. What good is sleeping if the sleep is not a peaceful one. If it isn't one that allows my mind to drift into another world and to have an out-of-body experience.
Lots of calculations were done today. Calculations for the future. Plans even. Some say don't plan and allow life to surprise you but I think one isn't able to just not plan at all, instead, plan some and leave the rest to the strange divine being that works his/her magic.
Projections. Good and bad.
Not exactly sure of what I'm getting at, if I'm even getting at anything. But oh well, nightly or rather dawn-ly thoughts are all part of living.
At the very least, my brain and body are functioning, that's got to count for something. :)
Till further ramblings! Ha!
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Peace
Part of it is being accomplished, step by step, brick by brick, a path has began to be paved. The other half hasn't even begun. Lying to myself saying I've made complete peace with myself would be a lie. A big one.
Often conflicted. Attempting to look at more than two angles and at issues without a box is a tedious job.
But you know what, that's the great thing about life. We're always learning, always doing something new and if we aren't, we need to start. I've started and I'm loving the change.
A positive one at that. Slow in process but nurtured well along with sufficient time and effort spent will eventually reap its benefits. Not just for the individual but hopefully, for a community.
Progression. Precession. Such beauty in those words, in what they represent and for what they can manifest into.
Wonderful. (:
Often conflicted. Attempting to look at more than two angles and at issues without a box is a tedious job.
But you know what, that's the great thing about life. We're always learning, always doing something new and if we aren't, we need to start. I've started and I'm loving the change.
A positive one at that. Slow in process but nurtured well along with sufficient time and effort spent will eventually reap its benefits. Not just for the individual but hopefully, for a community.
Progression. Precession. Such beauty in those words, in what they represent and for what they can manifest into.
Wonderful. (:
Friday, November 16, 2012
Echoes of the Mind
Dedication of life to education fosters change within. As time passes, wisdom attained seeps into the cracks of the soul gradually manifesting into something worthwhile and beautiful. Embrace, these bits of fortune that have been nurtured over time with knowledge of its fragility and watch as the worlds secrets unfold as you learn the truth that you seek.
Monday, November 5, 2012
Young Folks
Self reflection. Today was a day for it.
Do you ever feel like you're going through life as a routine? You know what Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday will bring. Yet, you don't. Life surprises you often in ways unpredictable and more often than not, those surprises are the causes for our evolution.
This state of change, it's a gradual process, keeping the essence of the self yet finding ways to complete oneself. Not through having a companion, a spouse, a partner but first just being complete, happy, comfortable and at one with the self.
It's no easy feat. We live in such a mediated and digitalized world. We rely on all these external, excessive stimulants to "complete" us. Gadgets, cars, clothes, all these materialistic items, their meanings are only as valuable as those you place upon them.
Today, I sat at a coffee shop, read my book and occasionally I would glance up and look towards the busy traffic passing me by. Women proudly donning their Louis Vuitton totes, Burberry Handbags, Balenciagas, Coach and the likes just wearing it as if it were part of their persona. Status mattered to these people but what did they make of it? Are they changing the world? Perhaps some are, who am I to judge but yet I couldn't help but wonder.. Why is society fueling the greed of corporations. Why aren't they doing more than they can with themselves? We are humans, we are engineered differently for a reason. We each have our purpose.
Consumerism. In this day and age, just seems so incredibly overdone. Multi-national corporations know us better than we know ourselves! They know what we like, which age group spends the most, what we spend on, how we think. Doesn't this scare you? Not even just a little bit?
Our lives are being manufactured, they're being constructed for us without our conscious knowledge.
I'm not claiming to see all the imperfections in society but just something about how so many seem centralized on the idea that money is everything. It isn't. Experience, exposure, these involvements can't be bought with money. Money cannot buy time. Money cannot buy knowledge. Of course one can pursue a higher education which yes, money can buy but what education is it buying? A linear deterministic one? One that doesn't allow for detours and only claims that one route is the way to success?
Where are we today as a community? Why are we so critical of what others do? Why is culture standing in the way of people broadening their mind. Are we so hardened and frightened by the unknown that we'd rather live in a bubble, in oblivion, in ignorance? Cowardly shying away from anything that seems new or having an alternate perspective.
We are Young Folks, we should seize opportunities and if they don't come by, we should make them. This generation already has such a dystopian outlook on the future, Europe is crumbling, America is about to decide on their next President who will either make or break them given their massive amount of debt, Asia's growth is beginning to slow down and will eventually stagnate. What's the use of having Youth if we do not do something worthwhile with it for the future.
How will you live your journey?
Do you ever feel like you're going through life as a routine? You know what Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday will bring. Yet, you don't. Life surprises you often in ways unpredictable and more often than not, those surprises are the causes for our evolution.
This state of change, it's a gradual process, keeping the essence of the self yet finding ways to complete oneself. Not through having a companion, a spouse, a partner but first just being complete, happy, comfortable and at one with the self.
It's no easy feat. We live in such a mediated and digitalized world. We rely on all these external, excessive stimulants to "complete" us. Gadgets, cars, clothes, all these materialistic items, their meanings are only as valuable as those you place upon them.
Today, I sat at a coffee shop, read my book and occasionally I would glance up and look towards the busy traffic passing me by. Women proudly donning their Louis Vuitton totes, Burberry Handbags, Balenciagas, Coach and the likes just wearing it as if it were part of their persona. Status mattered to these people but what did they make of it? Are they changing the world? Perhaps some are, who am I to judge but yet I couldn't help but wonder.. Why is society fueling the greed of corporations. Why aren't they doing more than they can with themselves? We are humans, we are engineered differently for a reason. We each have our purpose.
Consumerism. In this day and age, just seems so incredibly overdone. Multi-national corporations know us better than we know ourselves! They know what we like, which age group spends the most, what we spend on, how we think. Doesn't this scare you? Not even just a little bit?
Our lives are being manufactured, they're being constructed for us without our conscious knowledge.
I'm not claiming to see all the imperfections in society but just something about how so many seem centralized on the idea that money is everything. It isn't. Experience, exposure, these involvements can't be bought with money. Money cannot buy time. Money cannot buy knowledge. Of course one can pursue a higher education which yes, money can buy but what education is it buying? A linear deterministic one? One that doesn't allow for detours and only claims that one route is the way to success?
Where are we today as a community? Why are we so critical of what others do? Why is culture standing in the way of people broadening their mind. Are we so hardened and frightened by the unknown that we'd rather live in a bubble, in oblivion, in ignorance? Cowardly shying away from anything that seems new or having an alternate perspective.
We are Young Folks, we should seize opportunities and if they don't come by, we should make them. This generation already has such a dystopian outlook on the future, Europe is crumbling, America is about to decide on their next President who will either make or break them given their massive amount of debt, Asia's growth is beginning to slow down and will eventually stagnate. What's the use of having Youth if we do not do something worthwhile with it for the future.
How will you live your journey?
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